One of my favorite bloggers started a 30 Days of Truth exercise that she stole from here and I loved the idea. I started thinking about what I’d write if I was doing it, and then I saw that one of my best friends (and the official other half of my brain) was taking up the challenge, so I decided to join her. For the nest 30 days, I’ll be writing based on the 30 Days of Truth prompts. I’m hoping this will get me back into the habit of blogging regularly, as I have very much missed the opportunity to do it. You’re welcome to read any or none of the entries!
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself
This was a hard one for me, not because I hate a lot of things about myself, but because I don’t HATE anything. I dislike a lot about myself, but nothing is so awful that I’d say I hated it. So we’ll go with things I dislike about myself.
I don’t like my lack of self esteem. I’m really REALLY hard on myself about things that shouldn’t matter. I care far too much about what other people think, and I waste a lot of energy trying to pretend that I don’t. I want to be comfortable with who I am, I really do. I just haven’t figured out how to do that yet.
I don’t like my appearance. I’m WAY too white. Not like an attractive color, but sickly looking. (We took pictures last night during our new year’s eve party, and more than once I was referred to as pasty and or vampire-like. And I wonder why I have self esteem issues…) Being in the sun does nothing but make my face burn, so the only way I can fix this is to get some makeup that covers up the pasty white skin I’ve got going on. Except, I have no idea how to buy or wear makeup. Yay!
The thing I dislike the most is that I’m so overweight. It’s not like I’m not trying to lose weight either. I did the Jillian Michaels 14 Day Cleanse & Burn and after two weeks, I’d actually gained a pound. Seriously? I ate better, stayed away from cheeseburgers and fries, and took up to 5 pills a day and yet went in the opposite direction of my goal. Awesome. It’s something I’m constantly battling, and hopefully soon I’ll find something that actually works for me.
I know this is a downer subject to start the new year with, but it can only get better from here, right?
It’s not a downer subject… it’s on the tips of all of our tongues. Bro & I bought P90X and an elliptical, used off of Craig’s List today. I can’t say I’ll do that program – it looks a little too aggressive for me, but the elliptical, and my old faithful friend Weight Watchers will become intimately acquainted this coming week. It’s not a resolution to lose weight. It’s to be healthy. The rest will fall in place.
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I love reading your blogs. I feel inspired after reading your insightful, funny stories. Some of the things you have said about yourself, I don’t see. Maybe because I rarely see you :0(. I see a strong, determined young lady that has made Mr Donald very happy. Take care sweetie and I look forward to reading more from you :0)